Mister 'E'

Hmm...
Again and again, I reminding myself to talk English more often. It is at lower average!! I feel struggling when learning English. Could anyone tell me what to do? I really need someone to guide me learn it in the proper, alternative and effective way. I'm finding the solutions and try my very best for my English now. Even the main purpose I doing Form6 now is to force and push me improving speaking and listening in English. I found out SMI is a best place that can totally influenced me to having English conversation all the day. I do hope I can speak it fluently like others. Just that simple. And, I just aimed to get Band4 for my MUET as I know my English level is low.

I've taken the great initiative to do well for it. Normally I used up 3-5 dictionaries when writing English essay at home. Am I normal?? My mom was so 'proud' of me once she see me made a mess in living room. Can you imagine it? The living room is full of books, papers, dictionaries, school bag on the sofa and floor, pens everywhere...It is not for guest anymore, it is my heaven...wakakakaka...

Perhaps I would be 'the most talkative one' in my class if I could speaking English fluently. Now I just feel strange to the others. I found out I was dare to talk with others in English at other places but not at school! What's wrong with me? OMG, I hate discriminate by others..

I really hate some of them who always say my English is worst and need improvement without showing or correcting my mistakes. They should pointing out my mistake or errors and not to 'forgive' it or just keep quiet. How come they are so selfish to share their knowledge with me since their English is better than me? Don't think you are good enough in English and you can bully me, I'm here telling you-I WILL MAKE YOU REGRET LATER. Well, I'm very thankful if someone is willing to help me, teach me and give me some directions and advices to improve it well.