I deserved it..

11 March 2010-A red letter day.
My SPM result was released on this day.
The moment that I got my own result, I was speechless.



The hope was not come to me. I didn't get a good and contented result this time. It was not reaching to my target. No chance for me to apply anythings and or even further my study at overseas. I was hypertension while sitting for the exam for almost one month. I realised that I had lost a lot of marks in many subjects that affected my grade once I rechecked my question papers after exam. I almost have twice nervous breakdown after exam and after getting my result. Hypertension was made me done wrong calculation or shaded the wrong answers. I know how I am going to get the correct answers for those questions but I had chosen and shaded it wrongly for almost 10++ questions in paper 1.
SO CARELESS!!!



I should not pushed myself until get into trouble. Was it late to blame myself now? The answers is YES and NO.
YES- Perhaps my SPM result would be in flying colour if I was not that careless.
NO - Still have time for me to overcome these kind of problems no matter in what conditions and do not let it happen again in STPM.



I had no mood after we had taken our results. I was pretended that I was not feeling sad to my result. I don't want to cry in front of my fellow friends. On this day, I had rejected my friends invitations to go gathering since we had been separated for almost three months. After went back home, I hidden myself in my room. I sobbed..sobbed in secret. I don't want my parents, sister and brother know that I am crying. I don't want let them worried about me.. I felt so upset. I wished to have a good result after worked hard and spent two years for SPM. Similarly, I also want to make my parents proud of me. I want to make them happy! They are always counting on me, expecting that I can get good result...but...I had failed to do so.



Well, in optimist thinking, SPM wasn't ended up my life. And, I should be thankful that I didn't obtained other grade besides AB's grade. On the contrary, this unsatisfactory result has encouraged me to be in relaxing mode and put more effort on my STPM soon.:)



Aha, I am still remembered what my aunt told me. She said, not all of them getting straight A's in any exam will get high pay in future. All these is rely on your own abilities, your smartness, your professional and your experiences in any field or scope. Her advice was totally regain my vigour to keep achieving my goal as I just got 5A's in my SPM. I still can survive although I have not getting many A's...SELAMATLAH saya..