好害怕。。真的真的好害怕。。
中六的路是我自己选的，原以为能够在中六有一番作为， 考取令人刮目相看的成绩。。谁知， 我失败了。
失败是成功之母嘛。。但总没有人希望自己时常失败的啊！ 踏入中六生涯以后， 我越来越懒散了。我真的不想这样啊！ 生活开始越来越不踏实， 没有目标， 没有方向。。。在这种家庭里， 我可真是父母的希望， 也是能够改善家境的孩子。他们的希望都寄托在我身上了， 可是自己却。。唉！ 真的没人能了解我的心情， 我那一副装无烦恼，开朗以及常带欢乐的样子都出卖自己了。
现在， 很多好友已不在身边， 各自追求自己的梦想去了。而我呢？ 我还在干嘛？不就是在过着这不踏实的日子吗？我只不过是在发白日梦而已。 我。。依然是那个无能又没用的家伙！我所立下的大志和那种努力不懈的精神呢？都去哪儿啦？？
上了中六我依然是那个欣宜，我的个人表现越来越差了。思想没有变成熟，胆子也没变大，好像越来越没有智慧似的。。这究竟是为什么？有谁能够告诉我呢？？是因为周遭朋友影响吗？唉， 我真的不知道啊！好烦！
说真的， 这里的朋友都很不错， 大家性格相似又易相处， 确实很难得。但不知为什么的，总觉得这一切都很短暂， 感觉好虚伪。现在的日子却是闲谈多过好好地认真读书，英文会话也没什么进展。人际关系固然重要，但学业更重要啊！真的好想拥有一大群的朋友给予我巨大的推动力，好让我能实实在在，踏踏实实，开开心心的考取我要的成绩。这，岂不是两全其美吗？
是时候要好好想想如何改善自己，做个真正有用的人。或许放弃娱乐会是唯一的好办法。若再不逼自己好好反省， 恐怕将会误了我的一生， 走向黑暗的路途。前途与钱途都掌握在我手中了，我真的不想再浪费时间， 更不想在我的人生中留下更多的遗憾。
神啊。。请您赐给我力量好吗？
Wednesday, 25 August 2010
Wednesday, 11 August 2010
Is time tO Make yOurself Awake
Test is coming...What I gonna to do is...STOP fb-ing...
Duhh.....is moody to study. Hard and lazy. I was wondering why our teachers always discouraging us not to do form 6 at the beginning. The fact is, if you are not that hard working you may not obtain any good result that you demand for. That's it. This would be the first time I having monthly test at another school, study by myself without my beloved best friends who had entered UTAR and TARC (previously we always having discussion and study together).Duhhh.................
I know I am lazy and do not put enough effort on study. Shingyee shingyee..Please lar...I beg you. Stop dreaming and think of your future or otherwise you will regret later. Should study very (x1000000000000000000000000000000000000000000) hard.
Duhh.....is moody to study. Hard and lazy. I was wondering why our teachers always discouraging us not to do form 6 at the beginning. The fact is, if you are not that hard working you may not obtain any good result that you demand for. That's it. This would be the first time I having monthly test at another school, study by myself without my beloved best friends who had entered UTAR and TARC (previously we always having discussion and study together).Duhhh.................
I know I am lazy and do not put enough effort on study. Shingyee shingyee..Please lar...I beg you. Stop dreaming and think of your future or otherwise you will regret later. Should study very (x1000000000000000000000000000000000000000000) hard.
Tuesday, 10 August 2010
TrOublesOme
The second appeal was proved by the JPN on 30 June 2010. Unfortunately, JPN had issued me to RPS (Raja Perempuan School)..I was panic on that time. After I got the letter, immediately i went to JPN to seek for the person in charge, Penolong Pengarah (10 out of 1 Penolong Pengarah) but unfortunately he was having meeting for almost 1 week and was sicked on the following week. I called him everyday and went to JPN frequently but it helps nothing. No denying I was lost...lost in all directions. What I've done the next were...
-At first I went to JPN, since the Pengarah was not around, the clerk told me that I have to report myself first, study at RPS for some time and get appellation for school transfer. What I've worried is once I stay in RPS, I would not have any chance to back to SMI since I've applied for librarian and holding posts in St. John and Chinese Language Society and all these did by my effort. If I leave SMI means that I am giving out all these posts, wasting time and my 'precious' efforts as well.
-After listened to the clerk, I was pointless. I went back to school and seek for the Principal. Well, Mr Phoon also gave me the same option. He advised me to report myself to RPS first and back to SMI. It sound's easy because I need not have to study in RPS.
-Next, I went to RPS. I told RPS Principal (a Malay woman, like iron lady) my situation and she said I should not report to their school. She explained that once I study in their school, then I might not be easily get back to SMI. Indeed, school have to registered me under their school and refill those form and trouble their teacher to do extra paper work. If I leave the school again, all these paper work do by teachers are a waste.
-Eventually, I went back to SMI and looked for Pn Zalihah who had placed me in LSA3 on the next day. She said the school will help me to stay in SMI. Well, until today, there is no an answer yet. What I gonna to do is, stop worrying and keep on studying. I will take all these as challenges since I was trying so hard to settled those school transfer matter in order to study in a 'peace', like what other ordinary students do.
Well, I am currently in LSA3, I think it would be the best class to join compared to other art classes. Man should appreciate what they have and satisfy with what ever they had.
-At first I went to JPN, since the Pengarah was not around, the clerk told me that I have to report myself first, study at RPS for some time and get appellation for school transfer. What I've worried is once I stay in RPS, I would not have any chance to back to SMI since I've applied for librarian and holding posts in St. John and Chinese Language Society and all these did by my effort. If I leave SMI means that I am giving out all these posts, wasting time and my 'precious' efforts as well.
-After listened to the clerk, I was pointless. I went back to school and seek for the Principal. Well, Mr Phoon also gave me the same option. He advised me to report myself to RPS first and back to SMI. It sound's easy because I need not have to study in RPS.
-Next, I went to RPS. I told RPS Principal (a Malay woman, like iron lady) my situation and she said I should not report to their school. She explained that once I study in their school, then I might not be easily get back to SMI. Indeed, school have to registered me under their school and refill those form and trouble their teacher to do extra paper work. If I leave the school again, all these paper work do by teachers are a waste.
-Eventually, I went back to SMI and looked for Pn Zalihah who had placed me in LSA3 on the next day. She said the school will help me to stay in SMI. Well, until today, there is no an answer yet. What I gonna to do is, stop worrying and keep on studying. I will take all these as challenges since I was trying so hard to settled those school transfer matter in order to study in a 'peace', like what other ordinary students do.
Well, I am currently in LSA3, I think it would be the best class to join compared to other art classes. Man should appreciate what they have and satisfy with what ever they had.
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